I have been a literal failure when it comes to posting. I have used possibly every excuse in the world not to do anything. But I'm back!
So this year is been hectic. My Lyme disease came back full force. This time it attacked another system of my body. First it was my stomach and gallbladder but when I got that removed those buggers moved to my brain, bones, and nerves. So as of today I have arthritis, carpal tunnel in my right hand, and severe bone pain. =[
I have been going to doctor after doctor. I have gone to the hospital a few times since the beginning of December. I went back on Bicilin shots in my ass. But I do have good news, this Monday I will be going to a Lyme Literate Pain Management doctor in Connecticut. I hope he can help me with all the pain I am going through.
I can't say that all of what I go through isn't mentally challenging. I have had a few mini breakdowns where I just need a day to cry it out. But after those days its all better. My family and Patrick have helped me get through that.
I have a jealousy and anger problem with the people that aren't sick like me. I fell like if I had that healthy body, I would do so much with it. Charity, Volunteer work, Plain work, enjoying my life and taking vacations. And when I see people just wasting their physical health because their lazy or unmotivated, I get angry because that could be me. Its wasted physical potential. But this is MY problem. To each their own. One day I will have that. And I will use that to my full potential.
Another nice thing coming in April is my 3 year anniversary with Patrick. Hes like the best thing that had ever happened to me. I mean that. For him to have stuck by me and my negative attitude most things, he like deserves the medal of honor for best boyfriend in existence. I just can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. And when I get healthy we are going to do so much stuff. Vacations, museums, DISNEYWORLDDDDDDD!
I can't wait until the day I can walk without pain.
TaTa for now!
❤️
-Cassie
